If I

If I were to do it all over again
I will do it differently

If I ever get a second chance
I want to do it better

If I have the opportunity now
I am taking it

If I
Yea

I Feel So GOOD

I am so confused now
one who has his mobile off
two thinks writing to me a waste of time
three shut his mobile the moment i called him
four refused to reply my message - sulking over matter
fifth thinks he can con me with the cyber scam story and pictures

in the end of the day

I fancy no one above
I rather stay single happy and alone
without cracking my head worrying over crazy nuts
and pea brains

someone told me the more hardship we get from God
means the more we are loved by Him

in other words the harder ppl get to come close to me
the more love I will get from Him

ah yes that feels good

My all

I come and go

like the wind blow

I see you

see me thru

how can I tell

you are available

no games and pain

I like it all and not in vain

have a heart

for a start

no need to judge me

no more intimidating me

clear all doubts away

stay on board all day

we braved our souls together

as we hit the stars and moon forever

On my own - Whitney Houston

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OOWcTUoG_eo

I'm wiser now
I'm not the foolish girl you used to know
So long ago
I'm stronger now
I've learned from my mistakes which way to go
And I should know
I put myself aside to do it your way
But now I need to do it all alone

And I am not afraid to try it on my own
I don't care if I'm right or wrong
I'll live my life the way I feel
No matter what I'll keep it real you know
Time for me to do it on my own
Yeah yeah, mmm, yeah yeah

It's over now
I can't go back to living through your eyes
Too many lines
And if you don't know by now
I can't go back to being someone else
Not anymore
I never had a chance to do things my way
So now it's time for me to take control

And I am not afraid to try it on my own
I don't care if I'm right or wrong
I'll live my life the way I feel
No matter what I'm gonna keep it real you know
Time for me to do it

Oh I start again go back to one
I'm running things in my way
Can't stop me now, I've just begun
Don't even think about it
There ain't no way about it
I'm taking names, the ones of mine
Yes I'm gonna take my turn
It's time for me to finally stand alone, stand alone

I am not afraid to try it on my own
And I don't care if I'm right or wrong
I'll live my life the way I feel
No matter what I'm gonna keep it real you know
It's time for me to do it
See I'm not afraid

I look to you

I Look To You - Whitney Houston


As I lay me down
Heaven hear me now
I'm lost without a cause
After giving it my all

Winter storms have come
And darkened my sun
After all that I've been through
Who on earth can I turn to?

(Chorus)
I look to you
I look to you
After all my strength is gone
In you I can be strong

I look to you
I look to you
And when melodies are gone
In you I hear a song I look to you

(Verse 2)
After I lose my breath
There's no more fighting left
Thinking to rise no more
Searching for that open door

And every road that I've taken
Led to my regret
And I don't know if I'm gonna make it
Nothing to do but lift my head

(Chorus)
I look to you
I look to you
After all my strength is gone
In you I can be strong

I look to you
I look to you
And when melodies are gone
In you I hear a song
I look to you

(Bridge)
My love is all broken (oh Lord)
My walls have come (coming down on me)
tumbling down on me (All the rain is falling)

The rain is falling
Defeat is calling (set me free)
I need you to set me free
Take me far away from the battle
I need you to shine on me

(Chorus)
I look to you
I look to you
After all my strength is gone
In you I can be strong

I look to you
I look to you
And when melodies are gone
In you I hear a song
I look to you

I look to you
I look to you...

Move on

I finally deleted the Colonel from my list
I am no longer in his 'bus ride'
He came very moody last night
And so I decided to exit
I dont bother to answer nor return his calls
That was it
He has becoming annoying to me lately
Intimidating and pathetic
I am sick of his lame jokes
His boring complains over his wife and family
He will never be a happy man
That's his problem
He is only interested to bed me
Clearly that is not going to happen
No way am I allowing myself to be eaten by a toothless guy LOL

I know best what I want
A complete and not so perfect man
Who needs me more than I need him

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It's been a year today!

This date last year
I am single again
How time flies
Never regret the past
and
Not afraid for the future
To live full
To laugh more
To love complete